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JN018F

Password

JN018F0EE

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Winter 2017 Newsletter

Winter Puzzle Solution

  • THE PILOT WAS BORN THIS YEAR ... TWENTY FIVE YEARS LATER HE NEVER MADE IT TO BPAZIL ...


  • "Bpazil" misspelled on purpose...
  • PR leads to Paul Redfern
  • P is the 16th letter of alphabet and R is the 18th letter of alphabet = 1618 - JWJ's patient number
  • Pilot: Paul Redfern
  • ???? = 1902/XXXX = 1618
  • Leads to audio file on LFoA website

Hidden Audio File

Transcripts of Audio File

Initial Interview at Time of Commitment

Unknown Man: So, tell me, Mr. McGowan, how do you feel?

McGowan: How do I feel?

Unknown Man: Yes, in simple terms, tell me how you're feeling.

McGowan: You a doctor?

Unknown Man: No.

McGowan: Will you help me?

Unknown Man: Mr. McGowan, I need you to...

McGowan: Look, I'm... I'm scared. I don't know where I am. The lady at the door, she took everything! She took my mother!

Unknown Man: Your mother went home.

McGowan: No, she didn't. She wouldn't do that, she got taken. The lady took her, I know it. Where did she take her to? Let me talk to that lady. I wanna find out where she took my mother! What are these?


[sounds of cuffs/shackles]


Unknown Man: Those are just to keep you in the chair. Please, calm down.

McGowan: Tell me what's going on. Maybe - Where am I?

Unknown Man: Your new home.

McGowan: Aha!

Unknown Man: What is it?

McGowan: If this is home, then where's mother? You said she went home, but you also said this is... I... I got you, doc.

Unknown Man: I'm... I'm not a doctor.

McGowan: Well, you look big for a doctor. I think you're right. You know what? I could take you. Maybe a doctor would fix you up. Hey, these things are hurting my wrists, bud! Hey, what am I supposed to call you? You know, when I'm busting you up for keeping me in here?

Unknown Man: You have no reason to hurt me. I'm here to help.

McGowan: In a pig's ass...

Unknown Man: You have to trust me, Mr. McGowan. We're here to help you.


[strange noise]


McGowan: What's that? Who - who's there?

Unknown Man: No one's there, I promise.

[mic click]

Interview After Being Drugged Up Some Time Later

Unknown Man: Well, Lloyd, you've certainly gone and gotten yourself in real trouble this time.

McGowan: I've never been...

Unknown Man: Do you hear me, Lloyd?

McGowan: I hear it's sunny this time of year...

Unknown Man: They're sending you to the far wing, east ancillary, the 300s?

McGowan: The whole thing, I've never been, he, he went...

Unknown Man: Do you know why you're going to the EA?

McGowan: He tried to go. He tried but he didn't make it.

Unknown Man: Jesus Christ, what have they got you on, Lloyd, huh?

McGowan: Gone... the jungle... probably fell in the jungle... gone.

Unknown Man: Yeah, well, you're going to be gone for a while, too. You killed that girl, right?

McGowan: Gone... he's gone... gone...

Unknown Man: Lloyd, I need - Listen to me. Tell me you killed that girl.

McGowan: The crazy statue there... that it was too far... too far, couldn't do it...

Unknown Man: I'm going to ask you plainly. Lloyd McGowan, did you murder that girl? Don't say no.

McGowan: The ferns are red now...

Unknown Man: Atta boy.


[mic click]

Interview Before Transfer to Darlington, MD

McGowan: What's going on, bud? Things seem scarce around here. Is it spring cleaning already?

Unknown Man: We're transferring you, Lloyd, you and most of the other patients.

McGowan: Transfer?

Unknown Man: Yes, to another institution.

McGowan: What, like Buffalo or something?

Unknown Man: Not quite. We've reached an agreement with a small facility in Maryland, umm, Darlington, Maryland. How do you feel about this?

McGowan: Ah, I bet it's darling!

Unknown Man: Are you afraid?

McGowan: I don't know what afraid is anymore. I don't even know what "feel" is anymore...

Unknown Man: Try to tell me.

McGowan: Look, if I feel anything, it's this. I feel like I've been asleep for the past thirty years and I still can't wake up. I feel like you've been selling me lies. I feel like my mother died before I could ever say goodbye, and my Pappy probably outlived her 'cause that's exactly the kind of asshole he was.

Unknown Man: You're handling this well...

McGowan: You're a funny guy, bud. I'll tell you what, you finally get around to telling me what my deal is and I won't beat the shit out of you as soon as they let me go.

Unknown Man: I guess it can't hurt now.

McGowan: Oh, it still could, believe me.

Unknown Man: I see your point. Lloyd, you were a threat to your family. That's why your mother dropped you off here. She was afraid.

McGowan: She was afraid of my father!

Unknown Man: She was afraid of you.

McGowan: In a pig's ass, she was afraid of me. I was her boy, her baby boy!

Unknown Man: Relax, please, Lloyd.

McGowan: What else are you going to pull out of that backwards noggin of yours, huh? Tell me. Tell me somethin' real good.

Unknown Man: Thirty years ago, you committed a murder.

McGowan: What?!

Unknown Man: That's why you can't place the past few years. You've been medicated and isolated for the majority of that time.

McGowan: I ain't never killed nobody! I ain't my father!

Unknown Man: There was a young woman with anterograde amnesia. Do you remember her?

McGowan: What? I... I don't know... Maybe... I... What are you talking about? I ain't killed nobody.

Unknown Man: Do you remember? She was also a patient of Dr. Richter's.

McGowan: Richter? Ah, yeah, that guy. I remember that guy.

Unknown Man: And the young woman?

McGowan: I... I think so. Rachel? Beatrice? I don't remember her name. What was it? I didn't kill her.

Unknown Man: You, yourself, admitted your memory is missing pieces.

McGowan: I think I'd know if I did that!

Unknown Man: Would you now?


[sounds of cuffs/shackles]


McGowan: You've got some nerve. You're trying to mess me up and get in my head! You can't! Get out! You wake me up from a dream and all my heroes are dead!